Confessions

Okay, so I admit it: There are lots of things I can do well, but keeping the house up is not one of them.

We have been married five years now, and it has taken me five years to own up to this!

During the first couple years of our marriage, I worked as a CPA–lots of 60-70 hr/weeks and out-of-town-travel. So I never felt like cleaning, and often put it off until it became a mammoth task that would take an entire Saturday to complete. (As a single, I could just stay up till 1 – 2 a.m. once/week or so to get everything done. But that changed after marriage–and things would constantly pile up.)

I told myself things would be better when I stayed at home after kids. Well, in the past 2 years, we have had 2 kids (one premature), my hubby has lost his job twice, we have moved 3 times, and I kept using all these things as excuses for why my house is unorganized & cluttered . . . Now I’m finally owning up to the reality, and trying to make improvements in this area! So there’s my confession.

But it’s a new year, and while there’s nothing magical about that (and certainly nothing is going to change automatically or overnight), I am resolved with God’s help to become a different person. To take my role as a homemaker as seriously as I took my positions outside the home. To go to “work” right here every day, with the same dedication, work ethic and resolve that I had going to a clients’ office. To ask myself, if I were getting “reviews” in my current role like I did as a CPA, what areas would be considered “strong/weak,” “above expectation/below expectation,” or “needs improvement” ?

I’m reminded that it’s busy season in the CPA world, and if I were still at Ernst & Young, we would be working 12-14 hr days M-F and 6 hours or so on Saturdays from now until March or April. Lucky me! I get to work 60-70 hour weeks WITH MY KIDS!!! 🙂

So I’ve spent a good deal of time over the holidays planning and working out a schedule and trying to come up with concrete ways I can improve as a homemaker. Hopefully, someday I will look back and say ‘remember when I used to . . . ?’ And even Daniel will laugh, because it will be such a distant memory!!!!! 🙂

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