Growing Up

“Mommy? I can’t wait until I be ten!”

I hear this remark from my three-year-old on a regular basis.

I don’t know why “ten” is such a magical number in her mind. But every time she says it, I think I’m going to blink and she’ll “be ten,” and her words will echo in my mind like it was yesterday.

The other day I had to go to Target. Daniel watched the older two, and I took Carissa. Usually she’s a great baby for running errands, but not this day. She fussed the entire time.

First, I stopped to nurse her, but she was working on a diaper so she wouldn’t finish nursing. I guess her tummy hurt. I then had to stop again to change her (very messy) diaper. And of course, once that was over, she was ready to finish nursing. The whole shopping trip turned into a ridiculously long nursing-and-diaper-changing experience. In the end I had to run through the store, grabbing the most essential items so I could get back home for dinner.

During the diaper change in the Target restroom, Carissa screamed. I always hate it when my babies scream in public. I had a couple less-than-ideal interactions with complete strangers when Micah was going through his ‘I-have-colic-and-I-scream-inconsolably-several-hours-a-day’ stage.

But mercifully this time two older ladies (one a grandmother, the other a great-grandmother) smiled at me through Carissa’s screams and told me to enjoy these moments because it will go by so fast.

While the screaming diaper moments in a Target restroom are not ones I want to linger in or repeat, I know they represent a stage that passes so quickly. Every evening, I’ve been enjoying extra long cuddles with this, my third child! I never want to forget the feeling of a newborn baby snuggling into your chest, breathing those contented newborn sighs.

Later that night, I held Mara. My big three-year-old Mara.

It wasn’t very long ago that she was my little baby. I told her about it: “Carissa wasn’t born yet. Micah wasn’t even born yet. Daddy would work late at night, and it would be just Mommy & Mara at home. And I would hold my little Mara and tell her how much I loved her.”

“But you’re growing up so fast!” I told her, giving her a hug.

And in her dramatic way, she sighed, “I wwwwish I would! Growing up takes sooo lonnnng!”

I didn’t try to explain it to my three-year-old. I just hugged her, even tighter.

As a child I thought the exact same thing.

But now I know better.

It’s gonna fly. . .

Yes, That Was Me . . .

Instead of Not Me Monday, I’ll just confess . . .

Yes, that was me, dashing into Burlington Coat Factory, grabbing a shirt off the rack so I could use the dressing room as a private spot to nurse my baby in the mall.

And yes. It was a blindingly-yellow Rocawear t-shirt with gold sparkles all over it (hey, that was the closest rack to the dressing room).

And yes, I said ‘no’ half an hour later, when the attendant asked if that shirt “worked for me.”

And yes, there was another woman with her stroller standing outside waiting, when I came out of the handicapped dressing room . . . I wondered what she was trying on . . .

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Yes, that was me, roasting marshmallows on a fork over my gas burner last night.

I was craving toasted marshmallows–ohhhh, I was craving them! Maybe even more than the marshmallows, I was wishing I were sitting around a campfire in the mountains somewhere in North Carolina. . . those were the days . . .

And yes, that was me, biting the marshmallow. Right. Off. The glowing fork! Might as well have stuck my tongue with a hot poker.

ARGH! Took care of that craving. And all others, quite frankly.

Thank You, God!

We loved our time at Fairmount Park (as you can see in both Cherry Blossoms & Violets and Hide-and-BOO!). Before bedtime, I always encourage Mara to talk to God and thank Him for special things He allowed us to enjoy throughout our day.

So she prayed:

Dear God, I appreciate that you really love us! Thank you, God!

Dear God, thank you for Tinkerbell, and thank you that we got to go to Fairmount Park.

In your name I pray, Amen.