2009: A Fresh New Start

In so many ways, I’m excited about the New Year! For me, it truly symbolizes a fresh new start in more aspects of my life than I have time to explain. Out with the old, in with the new!!! Hopefully over the next few weeks & months, I will unpack some of that here on this blog. But for now, on January 1, I’m looking forward with unbounded hope! 🙂

Daniel, being the encourager that he is, reminds me that there’s nothing magical about January first, and if it doesn’t go well, I can always have another “fresh new start” on January 17. Thanks, dear!

We had a good long talk today about some of my goals and how I can accomplish them. And we made our favorite cinnamon roll recipe, and of course enjoyed them with some french pressed coffee, after which he and Mara watched The Chronicles of Narnia together.

I’m working on my goals for 2009, so I will post more specifics later. . .? And I’m still working on my post regarding all that God did for our family during 2008! So stay tuned!!!

Sooo my precious little daughter has the flu

It’s midnight, and thankfully she is in my arms, throwing up on my clothes and her clothes–and unfortunately, on Blue Bear–but NOT in her bed! This means I don’t have to change her sheets and blankets, so I am thankful.

But she begins to cry. “Spit-up!” she says wearily through her feverish tears. “Spit-up–mommy’s shirt!”

“It’s okay, sweetheart,” I say. “Mommy can put on clean clothes.”

Daddy changes Mara’s diaper and puts on new PJs, while Mommy cleans vomit off the bedroom floor and throws Blue Bear into the pile that is going in the washing machine.

When we finally lay her back down in her crib, she looks up again through her tears, asking, “Blue Bear? Blue Bear?”

“Blue Bear has throw-up all over him,” I explain. “Blue Bear has to be washed.”

“Blue Bear–new clothes!” Mara insists. In her mind, it’s that simple: we change Blue Bear’s clothes, just like we changed Mara’s and Mommy’s clothes! . . . but it’s NOT that simple. So there are many tears between midnight and 2:15 a.m. when Blue Bear comes out of the laundry all clean!!

Then all is well again, and Mara sleeps till almost 8:30.

A Fun Little Person to Hang Out With

I’ve been really sick with the flu for several days now, and since Daniel was off work for four days around Christmas, he has spent a lot of time with the kids, particularly Mara. The other day as he & Mara came home together, Daniel said, “Mara is becoming a fun little person to hang out with.”

Mara nodded with a sweet smile and said, “Fun per-non hane out wiff.”

“For reasons just like that,” Daddy added.

So in this post, for reasons just like that, I’m sharing with you a little person who is fun to hang out with. 🙂

Usually the first thing I hear when I wake up is Micah “complaining” from his cradle–not really crying, just complaining–or Mara calling out, “MAAA-ma! MAAAA-ma!” from her crib. I take her to the changing table and change her (typically wet) diaper, which she will tell me is “only wet” or “dirty biper. . . yucky biper” (regardless of whether it is actually wet or dirty).

We take off her PJs and change into playclothes, and put on socks & shoes. She always lobbies for her purple shoes [“Perkle shoes? perkle shoes?”] whether or not they remotely coordinate with what she’s wearing. Then we do her hair. If the neighbors, Bill or Bob, are outside, she watches them while I do her hair, and says, “Neighbor! neighbor!” She always wants to wear a “wing” (ring, actually a tiny hairband); I find one that matches her outfit and slip it on her finger. Then fix her hair with barrettes or clips or bows.

After she’s ready for the day, we go in Micah’s room. If he’s awake, we will see his little face looking out of his cradle as we enter his room. Mara will say, “Micah! Peeking! Micah! Peeking!” and he will give a big smile, so happy to see us! Micah will nurse, get a diaper change and clean clothes. Usually Mara feeds her “perkle baby” “rice cereal” in its high chair.

Before breakfast, we let Verona & McCheyne outside. She calls them “Rona” and “Nane.” When we come downstairs, Mara will point under the basement door at the puppies paws. “Peeking!” she says with a furtive little smile. When the puppies come running back into the house, she will shout commands at them, which they completely ignore, “‘Ro-na, down-stairs!!! ‘Nane, down! ‘RO-NAHHHH!!!” (I guess I must do this, because she is constantly imitating me! It is a little humbling having a mini-me running around the house, repeating everything I say & do!)

If you ask Mara what she wants for breakfast, she may say “biggle” [bagel], “fensh toas” [french toast], or “cereal” (which includes any sugar-related cereal).

At breakfast, Micah is sitting on my lap eating his prunes-applesauce-rice-cereal goulash while Mara sits in her highchair eating her toast & “lelly” [jelly]. Micah often smiles these huge cheek-splitting smiles, which Mara attempts to imitate by crinkling her eyes, opening her mouth as wide as possible and sticking out her tongue. This normally isn’t a problem, but when she’s eating breakfast, it’s just gross. So I said, “Mara–no crazy faces.” And she looked very serious and said, “ON-ly Micah daisy phases.” Yes, Mara, only Micah. . .

After breakfast Mara helps put away the clean silverware from the dishwasher. “Knifffes!” she says excitedly. After all, this is the only time she’s allowed to touch the knives! And then she will say “Mara work! ‘fore Daddy come home!” Because I often say, “Mommy has a lot of work to do before Daddy comes home.” So I guess this is the work Mara has to do–before Daddy comes home. 🙂

Mara always gets Nerds candy (her favorite being, of course, perkle nerds) if she goes in the potty. This morning when I came out of the bathroom, Mara said, “Mommy! Poop in potty! Mommy get nerds!”

She wants music playing at ALL times. If it’s not, she will ask: “Moo-mih? Moo-mih?” and anytime any sort of upbeat music is playing, she will come to me with sparkling eyes and arms outstretched saying, “Less DANTZ!” She LOVES to dance!

At lunch, I’m watching a vine with 3 grapes on it canter across Mara’s highchair tray, as she narrates: “Lip-lop, lip-lop, lip-lop. . .”? Then suddenly one grape breaks free with Mara’s help and does a complete flip!

“‘nastics!” Mara explains, almost as if I might not have understood what was going on. Yes, Mara, your grape is doing gymnastics. . . Then she tries to re-attach the grape to the stem. . . Now she is taking each “arm” of her broccoli spear, saying, “Brocky Dantzing!”

Darla gave Mara a little tiny doll named “Joy,” and Daniel’s mom gave Mara some Patch the Pirate CDs for Christmas. She loves the doll and she loves to listen to the CDs as well! The song was playing “He gives me joy! He gives me joy–eternal joy!” and Mara looked up and said “Dah-lah give ME Joy!” She’ll understand when she’s older. . .

This is Mara’s answer to anything broken: “Buy new.”

Every night after brushing her teeth with her Hello Kitty toothbrush, she hands me her toothbrush and says: “Nite-nite toothbrush. Nite-nite kitty.” 🙂

Then I carry her to her crib where she lays down, always with “pink bear.” “Back,” she says, and lays him on his tummy, patting his back. Then, if I should happen to forget the pink blanket: “Binket! Binket! pink Binket!” Sometimes she asks for “perkle bear” or “lah-loh bear,” and now after Christmas “blue bear.” (Wow, it’s hard to keep up with all her bears!)

We pray together every night. And every night she says “Pay. Nur-CHEE!” [Pray nursery.] So we thank God for the nice friends she has in the nursery and the kind people who help her there so Mommy and Daddy can listen to the sermon. Most nights she will also add, “Pay. Frenn Micah!” So we pray and thank God for her friend Micah. 🙂

On Friday after Christmas, Daniel’s family went out to eat at a restaurant downtown. Since I had the flu, Micah & I stayed home. Mara told me about it when she came back, “Daddy, ice keem! Daddy fensh fies!” Apparently they had ice cream and french fries for dinner. . . That night she was very tired! So tired, in fact, that she didn’t even ask to pray for the nursery! (This is a first in weeks! I was truly surprised.) Instead, she said “Pay Ice Keem! Pay frensh fies!” and Daddy said, “Yes, we can thank God for the ice cream and the french fries.” 🙂

Last week I went to her crib one afternoon to get her, and she was singing, “a-MAAA-zee DACE. Owww SWEEE sowwww. SAVE ret wike MEE. Once Lost now FOUN. Blind NOWW i SEEEEE.” I think this will be one of my all-time favorite memories. She has been singing “Amazing Grace” all week, and sometimes she attempts the 3rd verse too.

I was truly amazed that she knew essentially the entire 1st verse of the song by memory! My prayer is that God will reveal to her His amazing grace at an early age, and she will give Him her life!

A Few Bloggable Quotes

I haven’t posted much lately. I’m staying really busy with the kids and with Christmas coming up. But in the midst of the busy-ness, there are moments that I want to remember!

November 20 was monumental primarily because Carson Elisha Uttke was born. Congrats, Chris & Melissa!!! I watched Corban on November 19-20, so those days were especially busy ones for me and very fun days for Mara. In the midst of all the fun, she said her first “sentence.” She wanted me to help put on her purple shoes. So she said, “Mommy helf!–perkle shoes?” I stopped to catch myself–did she really say that?–because she had never put that many words together at once!

Daniel “presided” in church on the first Sunday of Advent, which of course is the day they begin lighting the candles. The days he presides, I’m always a little nervous, having both children in the congregation by myself, while he is up front, because I never know when Micah is going to suddenly become fussy, and I never know when Mara is going to spontaneously announce something herself in the service.

Of course, when they lit the candle, she was super-excited, calling “TEE-doh! TEE-doh! [candle]” and then seeing Daniel, directly behind the candles, she said in a soft sweet voice, “Hiiiii, Daddy!” I put my finger to my lips, and she kept watching him, alternately saying “Tee-doh!” and “Hiiiii, Daddy!” in her sweet little voice. Fortunately, only the people immediately around us seemed to notice.

This morning, I was praying before Mara’s breakfast. She was excited about the apple slices on her high chair tray. She interrupted my prayer, touching the apple and saying “Pay? pay?” so I thanked God for the apple. Then she touched her banana bread and again repeated, “Pay? Pay?” so we thanked God for the banana bread too. I guess she’s starting to understand praying at our meals. 🙂 I LOVE my little girl!!!!

The Grocery Store Lecture

Over the summer, Mara struggled quite a bit with discipline, particularly whenever we went to the store. She might stand defiantly in the shopping cart seat or, when I was not supposed to be picking her up, she might refuse to hold my hand walking into the store. This behavior is simply unacceptable for several reasons, including her safety. So for several months now, I’ve been giving her the “grocery store lecture” in the parking lot right before we get out of the car. I want to make sure the expectations are clear. It goes something like this:

“Mara, we’re going to the grocery store now. When we get out of the car, you need to obey Mommy. If we’re walking, and I say ‘hold my hand,’ you need to hold my hand! If you’re in the shopping cart, and I say, ‘sit down,’ you need to sit down! You need to obey Mommy. . . ” Up to this point, I’m pretty stern, and you can always see her little wheels turning, processing all this. At the end, I try to reassure her: “I think you will obey, because I think you want to be a good girl!” and I give her a smile and a hug as we get out of the car.

Well, on Thursday afternoon, we pulled into the Shoprite parking lot, and I was sticking something in the diaper bag, when Mara looked at me, questioningly and asked, “Walk? Walk?”

Then with a stern expression and furrowed brow, she said, “Hand! Hand! [that was either me saying ‘hold my hand’ or else Mara assuring me that if I let her “walk,” she would hold my hand].

She continued, “OH-bay! OH-bay!? . . . GOOD girl!!!” Then she gave me a big smile.

Wow, something inside me felt torn between laughing and crying. Laughing, because it was the cutest lecture ever, so perfectly “rehearsed,” but at the same time, I somehow felt like crying, realizing just how much she comprehends and how much she remembers . . . She just gave me the entire grocery store lecture!

It’s humbling, sobering to realize that she remembers so much and notices every little word, every little gesture, and repeats them!

“May the words of my mouth and the meditations of my heart be acceptable in Thy sight, O Lord. . .”