So last night was kind of rough . . .

The whole preterm labor thing can be very frustrating. Trying to figure out whether these contractions are intense enough or frequent enough to call the doc. Because every time I have called, they have sent me to L&D triage (“It’s better to be on the safe side.”)

Almost every night in December I had this struggle between 1 – 3 AM, not my sharpest hours of the day, and a time when I always drifted back to sleep between intense contractions and struggled with how many I’d really had that hour and whether or not they were “like clockwork,” since they would be 6 minutes apart for an hour, except for the 15 minutes when I drifted off, when they were . . . who knows how many minutes apart?

Well, since my hospital stay at the end of December, my contractions have been weaker at night and many nights I’ve even slept through them. I’m sure the procardia has helped and I’m sure bedrest doesn’t hurt either.

But last night from 12:30 -3:30 AM my contractions were rather intense and four minutes apart. I was back to all the mental wrestling: How intense are they really? And are they “like clockwork,” if that time they were only three minutes apart? And: if I go up to the hospital, are they just going to give me IVs, monitor me, say I’m still 1 cm and send me back home? Or (maybe worse) keep me in the hospital for a few days, say I’m still 1 cm and send me back home?

I never know what to do.

This morning I woke up with contractions, still rather strong (not quite as strong as the ones in the middle of the night) but strong enough and close enough, that we decided  we should call the doctor.

So you know the drill . . . “we want you to go on in to Labor and Delivery triage to get checked out and stay on the monitors for a little bit. . . We’ll tell them you’re coming. . .”

[sigh] Here we go again.

At least she’s still inside, I keep reminding myself. She’s not in the NICU. This is a good thing.

Today is THE DAY

No, dear, if you’re reading this, I’m not in labor. . . Just reminiscing up here in my bed!

Today is the day gestationally (in my last pregnancy) that Micah was born.

I told Daniel this last night, and he found it disturbing: “Really?! YIKES!”

I thought it was encouraging–a positive thing! I mean, I’m hardly even dilated this time (every woman who has had  a baby before is currently 1 cm, right?). And while I am contracting, on progesterone, procardia and bedrest, at least I’m not in the hospital like I was before Micah was born.

I’m not thinking our little girl will make it to her due date (March 6th), but every day from this point on is an “extra” day that she’s growing and developing in the womb, where she belongs right now, instead of in the NICU.

So I have to say, today was a big milestone for Little Boo and me!

Family Updates

  • From Mara, walking down the stairs this morning: “Daaaaaaddy! Your daughter wet her bed!” This, in reference to herself.
  • From Micah, after eating pancakes for breakfast: “Allll duh [done]!” proclaimed proudly with the syrupy paper plate plastered to the top of his head.
  • From Daniel, while making cookies with the kids after dinner: “Micah managed to drool in the cookie dough.” Want some?

Just another day in the life of a family with two toddlers and a mom on bedrest.

2009 In Pictures

You Capture! this week features pictures of “2009 in review.” What fun!

Here are some highlights:

March: Fun in the Snow

Snow Buddies

Mara Loves Books!

Love Those Lashes!

Visiting Aunt Mary in Florida

4th of July

Late Summer: Rainy Day Fun

“My Backyard” at the Zoo

Ordinary Moments, and Yet So Precious

Fall Fun at the Park

I’m quite behind on pictures right now. Since Thanksgiving, I don’t really have any pictures ready to post. But I’m inspired now to get caught up!

I Saw His Hands Today

Friday was such an encouraging day for me!

My mother-in-law came over to watch the children around 8:30 and she ended up staying all day. She is super-busy with piano teaching and her other jobs, so it meant a lot to me that she gave so much of her time for us today. She always says that she wants to do it (and I know she does!), but I also know what a sacrifice it can be to give your time when the schedule is very full.

In addition to feeding, playing with and reading to the children, my mother-in-law cleaned up the kitchen, did our laundry, made a chicken-and-pasta casserole for dinner with the leftover chicken we had, vacuumed the dog hair off the basement steps, and completely washed the kids’ high chair and booster seat (which any mom knows can become filthy really fast when you’re not wiping them down all the time!).

Another friend, Jessica, had offered to come over and help with cleaning in the afternoon. Jessica and I aren’t super-close–in fact, she’s never been to our house before–so I’ll admit feeling a little awkward having someone I didn’t know all that well over and asking them to clean my bathroom!

My mother-in-law suggested I give her a list of things that need to be done, and tell her she could just pick which things she would like to do or prefer to do, and let her know whatever she chooses is fine.

So I made my list:

Jessica was here from 12:30 – 3:00, and WOW, she was a hard worker! I don’t know if you can tell by looking at this picture, but every single item is checked off the list! She was amazing! I really had no expectations of the entire list being completed. I thought if she gets the bathroom cleaned, or a couple floors swept and mopped, that would be great. But what a surprise!

I can’t tell you how exciting it was to have all clean laundry. Or to look under the piano bench and see freshly-mopped hardwoods, rather than dog hair. To have a clean bathtub for the kids’ Saturday baths! To look out the living room window from my bedrest couch, and see–not the window with its fingerprints and Micah’s tongue-prints from his hours of snow-watching–but instead to look merely through the window and see the blue sky and this morning’s fresh snow blanketing the houses across the street!

One of the biggest challenges on bedrest is to be content with just the basics getting done–childcare, food, laundry–knowing all the while, that when it’s all over, you’ll be picking up all the pieces yourself, while you adjust to a new baby.

I have two reasons for posting this today:

First, I’m so grateful to Christ for His body of believers that surrounds us in our times of need. For people who are the “hands of Christ” to someone (me) who can’t even clean her house or do her own laundry–even though, trust me, I would prefer to do it myself! 🙂 Thank you, God! and thank you, family and friends!

Second, I just want to encourage any readers out there: Do you know someone on bedrest? or for that matter, anyone needing help for a variety of reasons (maybe an older person, maybe someone recovering from surgery, maybe a mom whose husband is deployed overseas, or someone caring for a family member in the hospital)? Don’t underestimate the blessing you can be, by offering to bring a meal, do a load of laundry, wash the bathtub, or wipe a window clean.